A long gap since I last posted. Jessie came to stay for a fantastic week and I have turned a liquor soddern corner in my search for a job having fallen under the full employ of Sqaures in the town centre. It's the first full time job I have had since I did my research internship two years ago. You really are their bitch when you want to get money. My bosses own my body, my appearance, my energy, and really the contents of my mind while I am on a shift. The full reality of a job is incredible and it makes you realise there can only be one route to happiness and that is to find joy in whatever you do. That joy is easy to find in bar work, as I learnt in The Old Peacock, but you can be ground down after a while. This all weaves into the story of Little Miss Sunshine, which I saw today, check your own ambition the film tells us, It is essential to want more and better because contentment is how people get stuck in a rut. However, it is important not to spend every waking hour desiring something else or something better. Life will never move into the future and the person who places all their hopes there won't make the most of what they are doing.
Anyway, two shifts into the job. The first was a graveyard stint last night (Monday) and the second a training shift tonight with all the other seven newbies. We learnt how to mix cocktails and got to know one another. What is more, I am learning how to work my shifts so I get time off when I want.
Realisation of the day? If you want to do loads of stuff, you can't wait until you have time.